Meditating

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Stillness

So, I set a goal for myself to meditate every day – starting at the beginning of December. I’m using my Habitbull app to track my progress (yep, apps intrigue me).

They say it takes 66 days to create a well-rooted, new habit – so I have a ways to go yet. But so far so good … and the reinforcement of creating chains that reflect daily follow-through seems to keep me entertained.

The meditating has been interesting. Just as when I’ve settled in and done this before, I notice how all-over-the-place my mind is. This morning I meandered from stocking-stuffers to killing rats (more on that in another post, I promise). I was constantly bringing my mind back from its wanderings to the task at hand — breathing in and breathing out.

The other thing I noticed was how much time I spent thinking about what I ‘should’ be doing or what I needed to do. That was a path that it was much easier to get lost on. And several times it almost had me stopping so I could get busy ticking items off my to-do list.

Now, those thoughts almost never come up when I am playing Words With Friends or wandering around Liking things on Facebook. The waiting tasks are still as pressing (or not) as when I’m meditating, but I am oblivious to them. Same thing when I’m watching football — although I’m often doing something on my iPad at the same time.

It just makes me realize how disconnected and distracted I am — and how this is a more or less constant state in my life. It’s not that I’m not distracted when I’m on Facebook. But the fact that I don’t even notice it tells me that when Facebooking I’m even MORE disconnected from my life than usual. Layer upon layer of distraction.

Feels like I’ve developed a habit of disconnection. And while I’m not sure what to make of it, it certainly gives me pause and makes me want to get my feet more on the ground.

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2 Responses to Meditating

  1. Paula R says:

    Jordy, I’ve read your last few posts with great interest. Part of my adjustment here to my life in Florida I have had extremely busy brain at night. Mostly work related as learning my new fedex routes have been challenging to say the least. I have always been a good, deep sleeper. Not so much right now. I was up at 330 am the other day stringing some lights on my lanai. My mind is so cramed and busy during my work day it’s tough to shut off at night. So good luck with your process of quietin your brain, as I travel a similar path, for the moment anyways..I need to find some yoga class to get my “feet on the ground” if I may use your terminology. Thanks for sharing..

    • Hey Paula – great to hear your thoughts. Makes so much sense that your mind would be full as you settle in, get oriented, etc. And I can imagine that yoga would help. It’s a process, isn’t it? Love seeing what you’re up to via Facebook … take good care!

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